A N G E L I

i was going thru my stuff..and chanced upon a poem one of my closest friends in high school gave me..

thanks for it kur! did i ever tell you how much i loved it?

A N G E L I

As

beauty never fades in you

because you are so true;

like dawning of another day,

like watching little angels play.

N

ightly sights with all their ligts,

can never be compared

with a goddess so, so bright

and all the beams she shared.

G

entle breeze that gives us peace

you always make our minds at ease

wishes, dreams, and love, it seems

you have never been so dim.

E

nchanting as you have become

you have been envied by some

you’re grace is vernal and unwon

it makes all our sorrows gone.

L

ike a love that has not been

you’ll never know just what you mean;

as the light can’t see the dark

in our hearts you left a mark.

I

f love is heaven and lust is hell;

then you, my friend, i can not tell;

you’ve captured good and bad as well;

you’re even stronger than a spell.

I’m a kid at heart…as I said in a previous post…i don’t know if I’m being childlike or childish…but I do love receiving presents and I can’t help having that animated face everytime I receive one..heheh. but as much as i so so love opening gifts, I love getting things like this, poems and letters even more…for me, I feel like they’ve given me more of their hearts when they do surprise me with them. Anyway, tnx kur..love it jud!!

yeah!!

            Major dilemma!!! I feel like I weigh a thousand lbs! hahah! Exaj! The last time I stood on top of the scale was late last December after the pig out that was Christmas. Oh, not really a full-size binge eating for me since, I dunno, I just couldn’t eat a lot anymore. Well, I started eating less of rice & ate minimally the weeks before that in a fit of desperation to lose the unwanted lbs and my tummy just got so used to it, that when I do eat a lot, I get a bad case of diarrhea…and when I do have that, it becomes a real pain in the ass..literally!! Hahah! Aw jud buot noh?!! And I also had been trying to acclimatize to drinking only hard drinks (boracay, margarita and tequila ang show!! sosyal.hehe) to finally halt the mounting beer belly! I remembered one instance when me and wati had a tussle regarding my extending tummy..hahah! Quiver ang show! Really enticed me to exercise but did not break my spirit. I may not have most things that men drool about, like humongous breasts and a to die for body, but I’ve always believed I AM BEAUTIFUL IN MY OWN RIGHT. As I said in a previous blog, physical beauty is one thing, but brains, strength, wits and personality make up the bigger picture. I like myself in spite of my flaws and I don’t need to hear it from other people, even from the person I so love to make me feel good or to break me. Dah, quiver ang okadjang nayitch, nahgad jpun ma govi ox! Hahah! I still get a lot of stares and 2^nd glances!! Hahah! Feeler! Thinking of this topic, i actually remembered my encounters of being thought of as a foreigner (hahah..wa ko nghambog hah, just basing from experience), the most frequent recently is me as a Korean, maybe because of the hair and the mode of dressing, but way back in HS, I had been chosen to represent India (against my will, coz my teacher would be deucting poitns from me if i don’t join.huhu), since I look Indian daw, then I became I became a Latina (with 2 guys shouting, “Latina forever” while we were out partying..hahah! mga amao au!) and last December, a wedding planner actually asked me if I am Fil-Am..color ra toh sa buhok te! Heheh. Saonz nlng! Heheh. I may have the face (hahah! Kay d lang mohunong bah!)  but I don’t think it’s what’s making me stand out. I think I am more beautiful in the sense that I am fun to be with..and I feel like I’ve made a lot of people comfortable and happy..and I’m way cool..ask my friends..hahah! Maybe that’s why a lot more guys fall for me once they get to know me better..hahah..naunsa naman tawn ni oi! Heheh. well, this is one-sided, if you have violent reactions, please, I beg you, knock me back to reality! Heheh. My point is, I may not be as beautiful, or as sexy (my God! I don’t even think I’m sexy! Kovmatch ang show!) but it’s not reason enough for me to feel bad about myself. I’m happy being me. Still fabulous, still being admired by many, envied by a few, and still being loved by the people that matters most!

What more can I ask for? : )

        But nevertheless, I’m still aiming to eliminate the preggy look..mura lng gud ko pila ka months preggy ngli! Hahah! I’m starting to jog and I’m beginning to play badminton again. But alas, circumstances are just not on my side! The unpredictable weather the 1^st few weeks this year, forbid me to jog around the village. And since going to Badang’s place by the 2^nd week, I actually was not able to strictly adhere to my “Hard Drinks Only” policy.heheh. It had been weeks since I drank, and that night in Consolacion, I got dead drunk, and to think I was driving. Irresponsible au noh?! Bad cheetah au! Felt really ashamed of myself, and to the 2 others who were riding with me. (Please don’t be as reckless as me) Good thing my sis took over the wheel, and Wati had to sleep over to carry me up the flight of stairs coz I was lifeless. Heheh. And since that night, the fountain of beer, never ceased to stop flowing. Hahah! St. Francis boy and friend Mark came all the way from the US to make sure beer supply would not run out! Heheh. Commercial break: I just love the presents Marck! I just feel like a little kid. Oh well, I am always a kid at heart.(too much of a kid in fact..i badly need to grow up.heheh) I got so excited when I saw the sunglasses. The animated look may have charmed Marck, since he went back and gave me another pair.heheh. And of course the Fabuolash Mascara, thrilled me even more. Sungog gud ko wati ky surprised au ko face coz he knows the only kikay thing I do is curl up my lashes, put loads of mascara and make my big eyes even bigger…hehe. Senk u!!! And since Marck arrived, hala almost (was not able to join 2x, wd 1 nyt bcoz of asthma) everyday laag ang show, and everyday ang beer, so we’ve attacked Asle, Brews Point, Pod5, PUMP, Pipeline, Gaisano Bowlingplex (still have painful right hand and forearm now), Kasadja and Sideline (with me and wati wearing matching blue shirts during sinulog..they said we look really cute in our outfit. heheh and that time it was a reversal of roles, wati got dead drunk and lifeless and I had to guide him home..not his home..mine diay..hehe. As my cousin said, tie (1 all) nami wati sa kapatay sa kahubog.hehe) And just this afternoon, spent the day at the beach…got to ride on a banana boat!! Weeehh!! So so fun!!! But got a bruised left foot though coz the last time we flipped, I got hit so hard..huhuh..but all the same, FUN! FUN! FUN! Can’t wait to ride it again (save sa kog 3500 gud..hahah..48 years p ngli ko sakay balik.hehe) and also got to ride a jetski for the 1^st time with Dea(rode the jetski pulling the banana boat..hala shagit jpun ang show..nabungol jud ang driver.hahah!) Hahay! Laag galore to my mom’s utter dismay. She always had this long face everytime I asked permission to go, with the matching, “Laag ra man inyo nahibawan oi! Liwat jud mo mga Espina ky mga palahubog au! Hinumdumi usa

ra atoh life” hehe. Chance mama, marck would only be spending 19 days, and then I won’t be going out “that much” anymore.hahah! 1 more week till he leaves for the States again, and I don’t think I can drink anymore drop of beer (hahah, kaha?!), maybe I’ll just tag along and try to resist the lure of ice cold Red Horse beer. Hahah! mmm..Wish me luck!! : )

        So the last time I weighed myself, I tipped the scale at 103lbs, 4 lbs feathery than the last time, and which my evil brother said is unusually light for someone as big as me..hahaha..way batasan na igsoon, wa na bangka hah! kaw ra bah tambok. Heheh. But even when I was still wafer thin (way back HS) I had always weighed around 100lbs, doc says because of heavy bones. So I guess 103 was light enough..But this time, after calories and calories of beer, huh! I’m scared to weigh myself. Heheh. So after this drunken revelry is over, have to add up more rounds of jogging and more hours of playing! Para manganak nko! And no longer preggy looking!Hahah..fingers crossed! I’ll post a picture of me in my bikini when I achieve that goal! Hahah! Keep posted! 🙂

singit…

one sunday while going to church..i saw an old couple..and they still kissed on the lips during the "peace be with you" part and they went out still with fingers intertwined..really made me smile and hope i’d still do that with the man i love when my hair turns to gray and my face is already so wrinkled..mmmm..hopefully still with you partz..

Toodles…

lookin back…on my oh so fab life! hahah

 Missed me? Hahaha! It’s been a while since I bugged you with
friendster emails saying “Angge has updated her friendster blog”. I’m sure a
lot of you have been annoyed receiving countless of those junk mails and seeing
my face on that lower left portion of your home page..hahah! but who cares?! Oh
well, I don’t! I love beating my aged keyboard to death everytime something
pops up in my head, which by the way happens most of the time…what is..got such
an active brain! And such tickly fingers…Hahah! Sorry for those I’ve caused so
much inconvenience..:) if, receiving a lot of my blog mails is already hassle,
I won’t mind you ditching me off your friend list (char!) but the really stirring thing is, I learned
there are really those who take the time to read the things I’ve been
chattering about and been telling me thru their friendster messages and their
comments , even during face-to face conversations how much they enjoy reading
them, and how much they learn from those things I wrote. One even told me that
she hopes I’d get to have a public column so that a lot of people can actually
read what I’m saying and learn from it. Really touched me deeply…and which my
partz seconded, that I should try writing for newspapers (that has always been
a dream). Sweet as he always is, he even cut out an ad from the newspaper in
need of a witty blogger..heheh. And another actually told me “igo au ko imo
blogs ate tinks!” I’m not trying to brag or
anything, it’s just that it warms my heart discovering that I’ve made some
people laugh, that I’ve made some think things over, that I’ve knocked some
back to reality, and just plainly because I’ve amused a lot of people with what
I’ve been blabbering about, nonsensical or not. J

 Another year has passed…and so many things brewing in my oh
so extraordinary brain (hahaha!) and so many things to talk..er write about.. Brace
yourself for the novel.hahah…

 2006 has been a year of laughter, of ecstacy, of heartaches, of confusion, of fun, of frolic, and of anger, of love, and of tears (of bliss and of pain), of psychosomatic
illnesses, of newly
found friends like those guys who I just share
wavelengths with in People Support early last year, and PS best buds, nhemz and archer – I just
damn miss you so much guys! Being acquainted with my pseudocousin, oh-so-fab macky from salt lake city
(maasin city ra gud..hahah!) when we goin out for some drinks girl? For also
new friends Mark and Sheryl who showed us how to party (hala inom galore) when they
came back from the states last January (and who by the way is here again now
[mark]…giamdam na nmo amo livers for the
extreme alcohol consumption..hahah..ITO ANG TAMA!! ITAAS MO pajud! heheh), for an “unexpected”
email friend (with stress on the unexpected
jud..heheh. but oh so worthwhile..miss the emails girl, hahah..padungog bah!)

 Last
year, i had been given a shot in teaching, without me even applying for it..and
it was a blessing indeed! It was a combination of fun and frustration but I
still had a blast. And just recently I received the evaluation I got from my
students. And it really melted my heart. And could not help beaming from ear to
ear. To quote some of their evals : “Ms Angeli is a competent teacher. She
teaches well and even asks us if we have any questions. And if there is, she
answers it and explains it well to us.” ; “Honestly, she is one of the good teachers I’ve
encountered.” ; “She has this aura that makes the classroom a place fit for
learning”
; “
She’s jamming. She goes with our foolishness, but in a proper way.” And for me the best
comment I got, “She treats us as if we are all her friends” Ahhh, thank you so much for all those
comments…You made my teaching experience last sem so worthwhile. And I miss
hanging out with all of you. Just too bad, that I am not my usual self this sem,
I just don’t know why I am not able to get out the witty and sharp me this
time..:( but I’m getting there
though..slowly getting there..hopefully before the sem ends..or I’d get poor
evals and probably get sacked..huhuh!

 Anyway,
Last year also brought about a lot of things in my family…a very heartbreaking
father’s birthday…a misunderstanding with mommy dearest..an upsetting encounter
with a relative which made me cry so much and which worried my partz that I’d
spend the night out, a surprise from the stork for my 19 year old brother and his
girl (we
are so excited, just love babies!, a verbal tussle with my lola (wa mi nglalis
hah, I just refuted some things she said that made my father seem so saintly
which really pissed me off so much) heart aches from siblings’ love
lives..crying with each other, crying for each other..even fighting
nonchalantly with each other, our fave past time.. as I said we are
such a tight group..and the past year has made it even more tighter for us..

 2006
also paved way for numerous out of town trips…san rem, moalboal, bantayan and
all the others.. which I so so love..and which were so so amazing, because I
got to spend them with very close friends and of course with my one great
love..char! heheh..it just so happened that the years before, me and wati never
really got the chance to be together in most of the outings, and last year no
trip had been made without having the luxury of being together…hay, making me
smile now while thinking of them..:) as he said when he sent me a letter when
we had our 3^rd anniv last year, “mayta permanente na ni ky malingaw jud ko
outing basta naa ka” mmmmm.. me too! hehehe. And of course, one of my fave trips,
Badang and Marjun’s wedding in Calamba, Misamis Occ. Aside from getting teary
eyed when Badang walked down the aisle crying with her parents, I just loved
how wati helped prepare the reception and the decorations and mostly because
of how he made me feel really special the whole time we were there. What I could
colorfully remember were the kisses..hay, the whole time even during the scary
boat ride back to Cebu, it felt like he could not get enough of kissing and hugging me..despite the fact that a
kid was lying one cot away and looking at us..hahah! And of course in contrast
with the past 2 years, me and wati had been seeing each other almost everyday…and
an amusing thing happened recently, he saw an old receipt of one of our TJ
sprees last year inside his pocket and we were laughing so hard and teasing
each other about how alcoholic the other is..hala daghan au mig alcohol na order plus
one pitcher of margarita pjud..and to think it was just the 2 of us..hahah..mga
palahubog jud bah! we’re an unconventional pair, we rarely talk on the phone, but we
text to the hilt though, but we’re still so good to go! But it can’t always be
good. The
past year also brought about a lot of tension in our relationship…they say you
have to prepare yourself for the 2 ½ to 3 year itch…huh! Tears, pain,
heartaches, being lied to…at some point it did feel like bull…but then again give me
a relationship void of fights and misunderstandings, and I tell you it’s really
not a relationship. As my unexpected friend, cha, said, you should bring out
the best and worst in each other…but since that sad summer, we’ve more than
patched things up, and realized just how great we are together…inspite of the
squabbles and even the screamfest in PUMP! Hahah!  Feels so good to be loved! And the superb thing is that people say they see
that we’re really happy together. As Guada said, we’re like the Kate Hudson and Chris
Robinson in the group..we’re the cool pair daw! (But I sure hope we would not end up like
Kate and his hubby though) And good friend archer even said, “bagay au mo ge,
feel jud nko pareha jud au mog personality”. A lot of people have been saying, that aside
from looking a lot like each other we have very similar personalities…as most psyc studies
have proven, successful lovers resemble each other in appearance and
personality…so I guess we do have similarities..heheh..ambot lng pud..mao mn
ingon pipz..heheh. whatcha think? Hahay… how sweet it is to be loved by you…Last year
has been the best so far..and I’m Excited to beat 2006 with more tickles, and
laughters, and fun, and even more screamfest and tears…heheh.

 Life
has been so fab the past year and I’m itching to come in contact with what 2007
magnificently has to offer…I’m sure more fab-ness for me..hahah! is there such
a word?

Life’s getting more beautiful, and so am i! hahaha!!