dumbest!

i feel like the stupidest person in the world…

i just lost my wallet and my phone, just great right?! but what’s worse? i embarrassed myself in front of a great family, i embarrassed one very important person, and not only did i lose 2 very valuable things to me, i also lost the most important thing in my life..the only one that truly makes me happy…and it’s my fault! i just am the biggest loser to lose everything in 1 night…and i’m just the stupidest person to let something i’ve held on for so long, something that truly inspires me, something very dear to me, something that keeps me going everyday, something that keeps me strong, just slip from my fingers…the phone and the wallet are nothing compared to the greatest thing i’ve lost…

yes, i’m just the most foolish person in the world! 😦

can u really?

you know they say you forgive and forget…

but can you really forget?

there are things in the past that have hurt me so bad, and though i’ve forgiven, honestly and sincerely, those who have wronged me, still there are times when situations come up and bring back past hurts…

and even if you’ve long forgiven, shook things off and took a step up, when things that may seem to be related, though seemingly harmless, come up, it still pierces your heart…and makes you remember the hard times…

ahhhhhhhhhhhh, i never want to experience all those past hurts in my life again, whether in my family, my love life, in my circle of friends…

and i just wish that people would be sensitive enough to not let me go through all those again…because going through them were extremely heartbreaking…i know some of the hurts could have been avoided, but since they’ve already happen, the only thing to pray is that the people would never allow them to happen again…

PS

things i could also never forget? dates with my lovey!! we’ve been having numerous dates the past weeks, and each one is always better than the last! ily more everyday love!! i can’t wait to try out a new resto with you again..hehe..patambok samot! as you say it’s more than the legality and the papers, it’s the emotional connectedness…so that means we’re official! heheh..ily!