not perfect...but the best and ONLY love for me...
ily!!!

"And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close"

http://storyboarder.imeem.com/music/WvmGfmAv/jon_mclauglin_so_close/ 

SO CLOSE

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close togehter

And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew 
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy and
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous happy ending
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

serious ug churvah

i am in a confused state right now…

i feel good because i’ve been true to a friend..but i feel bad because i was so driven by my emotions that i failed to stop and think things over before making any action..i was impulsive, when come to think of it i was only a receiver of the news..my emotions blinded me that i was not able to be rational..i’ve texted both parties and one was thankful and which i believed further stamped the friendship that we strongly have inspite of not being able to see and talk to each other as much as we want to, while the other understood…

now what’s left for me to do is know what really happened…ahhhh, a heavy task put upon me by a friend but more so a heavy task put upon me by myself because of my brash thinking…i’m hoping with all honesty the news i got was sooo wrong…

SO my friend and i ended up texting til very late in the evening…nka gotch gud ko w nko k rep.heheh..sowe dai!

we came to sharing that girls as cool (hahahah), young and pretty as us shoudn’t worry about boyz since we can easily have any guy we want (hahah ng hinambug jud!hahaha) but then we made a decision to be with somebody and all we really want  other than making ourselves happy is also to make the people that we are with blissful…we know we’ve given it our all…we’ve labored so hard, we’ve given so much, we’ve cried a lot, we’ve toiled so fiercely yet if what we have would end, we know we would never regret anything…because we know we gave it our BEST SHOT…sure it would definitely hurt because they have been such a part of our lives already after so many years and we’ve already seen them as part of our future…but we can always take comfort in the fact that if we lose something, something better is just around the corner…

but we also believe that what goes around comes around…getting something better when you lose something would only take effect if you have been doing good while having what you already have…WHAT YOU GIVE WOULD ALWAYS COME BACK TO YOU…that’s why even if i dread losing the person i’ve been with for the  more than 4 years already, the relationship i’ve given more than 100% of myself of, i would always be reassured that even if it stings, even if it may take me a long time to recover, i know all the tears would not be in vain, something…someone better would come along…

simang:

i talked to another friend yesterday..i sure missed her..been quite some time since we’ve talked and even a longer time of not seeing each other..and she said that she doesn’t as many other people, want me and wati to part…rach! the cool couple. basis of comparison  daw..hahaha!! atot! k awatak jud ko!! agavz atay! joke! btw, i have heard few friends narrating to me that especially during arguments and usually by their boys:  "c wati mn lagi ug angge…..churvah" but honestly though it flatters me that people look up to us, i don’t want people to  compare,coz what we have, what we go through don’t necessarily match up with other people’s relationship…the parameters of the situations we are in would most likely be different from what others go through..my personality helps to this relationship going strong and so does wati’s personality..my personality and his may be quite different to others and to the persons they are with…that’s why i don’t really see the reason to compare…we have our deep shit moments too…and they also suck big time..heheh..we’re also trying…:)

PS.

I LOVE YOU LOVEY!!! mis you…

which is better?

Which is better: to cheat or to be cheated upon?

With nothing to do, i browsed through our old Cosmo mags and glaring in one of the pages is that very striking question…

so which is better?

I find it funny to ask "which is better" coz my gosh! neither of them is even good to start with! heheh..

well for the sake of answering, and since even at 12:45 am i’m still up and perky because of the coffee i drank during our meeting  which was then followed by a glass of coke! heevi! so since i can’t compel my big beautiful eyes (ows? heheh) to get some much needed shut eye, i decided to give out my view on the matter…

So if i have to choose which i’d rather prefer, i’d say being cheated upon. of course, i don’t ever want that to happen (ahhh, God forbid!) because it sure would sting, it would break me to pieces and would definitely make me skeptical in the next relationships to come…but though it would really suck BIG time to have your heart trampled upon, i find it far worse when i’d do the act myself…cheating is not in my veins. i would see it as a blow to my personality if i’d find myself hurting another person because i’m going out with someone else while i am still with him. i don’t want to be cheated upon, so why would i do it to someone else? others may have "so called reasons" why they cheated, but i personally believe that if you decide to be with another, or fool around with someone other than the person you’re with, you should end the relationship first before getting it on with the other. It may hurt, oh let me correct that, it would SURELY hurt the breakee (heheh na bah term ani?heheh), but it would be far better than knowing that the one you’re with is playing around behind your back…that would be a far more excruciating torture…

heavi commentaryo ang wosh! hahah..

that’s all folkz…bow! heheh